HOLY FUCK!!!

OMG! OMG! OMG! Holy hell, so much is going on here I can't keep up with myself. Here's a rundown....

Thursday night P gave me a ride to work. He ended up drinking and talking and staying all night. Afterward, we went to our old house for an hour or so..... This left me in a HUGE state of confusion. But, still realized that there was a reason for how everything ended up with us, and that wasn't going to just go away. All the lies we both told.... All the things he said to the world about me that just weren't true... All the gambling, cheating, drinking... It wasn't going to go away because we got drunk and laughed together for a night.

Saturday morning S proposed!!! WOW!! We spent the day at the lake just talking and having a few drinks. Soooooooo excited planning our new life... how the wedding would be, when we would do it... wishing we could do it right then.

THEN.....


Sunday morning I took a test..... PREGNANT! Oh shit! This makes four for me... but, five all together. I'm excited, scared, happy, scared... and super overwhelmed.

But, other than that.... not much going on here! HA!